October 31, 2018

Kindergarten & Seventh Grade

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School year 2018-19
Adrian J is in Kindergarten and is 5 years old 
Steven J is in Seventh grade and is 12 years old

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I cannot believe my oldest is mid way through his junior high years. I mean, where did the time go? It feels like it was just a couple of years ago that I was dropping him off in Kindergarten. Now I'm dropping off my youngest at Kindergarten! What is happening here!?

They both have grown so much this year. My mommy heart is extremely happy yet at the same time sad that there are no more babies in the house. Some days I sit back and just watch you boys. Watch your personalities and how much you have grown. I think back on those days when you were just a few months old and I would cradle you in my arms and rock you to sleep. Those days that you you depended on daddy and I to do everything for you and now you can do pretty much everything for yourselves. 

This past summer I came across several posts that said "we only get eighteen summers"and I started to think on how much truth there was to that. Eighteen summers, that's all we get before they run off and start making their own plans and decisions. *sigh* Lord have mercy on my momma heart as I savor in the summers that remain.


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October 29, 2018

Fearless Five

If there ever was a word I had to use to describe you, my sweet Adrian, it would be fearless.

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You have always been fearless but it wasn't until the last couple of weeks that I've come to terms on how fearless you truly are. At five years old you have gotten on a big boy roller coaster. The same one your brother got on about five years back. This summer you surprised me by jumping into an 8ft deep pool and swimming to the edge, floating in the middle of it, swimming to the bottom to touch the floor, and swimming back to the 4ft deep end of it. You even tried attempting doing back flip into the pool but I drew the line at that. While at the beach you got on boogie board and rode the waves just like your big brother did. A few months back we signed you up for Taekwondo and you got your yellow belt three months in. One day during class you walked in to older kids doing hand stands and very quietly you sat and observed only to mimic their movements and succeeding at a handstand several minutes later. Of course that I was not expecting that so my heart skipped a beat, or two I think, and lucky for you I caught it on camera. 

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You look up to your big brother so much. As well your daddy. You are without a doubt the younger version of your daddy when it comes to his personality. Your brother definitely is your hero which I find that to be adorable, until you start picking up his bad habits which is a big no no. You both have your own rooms yet you sleep in the same bed each night. You fight with each other all day long but you both go the extra mile to defend one another when you get in trouble or are being picked on by others. You are super caring and thoughtful and always think of him when he is not around. If we got to a store you make sure to get things for you and him and if you are eating you save him a piece of whatever that is. Unless is a donut, then you eat yours, his, and any leftovers. Your donut addiction has not changed one bit. 

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This school year you started Kindergarten and I have to admit that I am both excited and terrified. Excited because you are so smart my sweet boy and you are a fast learner so I have no doubt that you will succeed in school. Yet I'm terrified because you have a very strong personality (you take after daddy in that department like I mentioned earlier) which means that you want things done your way and on your time. You're known to be the class clown and well that means you'll likely be disrupting the class so I'm just praying that you are past that stage.

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In regards to height and weight you have been having quite the growth spur the past year and a half. I don't know what you and your brother have been eating lately but if you both keep growing at the rate that you're going you will sure be a lot taller than your daddy. At five years old you are over 50lbs and are about 44 inches tall. I'm not sure where you fall in the growth chart but I remember that your pediatrician sent you for labs on your yearly check up due to the increase in weight compared to the year prior. Thankfully your labs were all normal and you just needed some vitamin D. Which brings me on noting that this was the first time you ever had to take medicine in a pill form and well it took several attempts. That was quite the experience and laugh. 

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You are less of a picky eater compared to what you were at 3 years old that's for sure. You eat more types of meats now and have even tried several types of seafood. Water and milk are your go to drink of choice, you're not a soda or juice kind of boy thank God. But you definitively have a sweet tooth. Actually you have always had it. You are sucker for chocolate and candy. I hate to admit it but in the last two years you've had seven cavities (I know go ahead and judge me, but if it helps Steven Jr has had 0 cavities in 12 years. You win some and lose some I guess). 

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Earlier this year you lost your two bottom teeth and they have grown in since. There has not been any signs of any loose teeth since then either. Funny story, the tooth fairy left you dollars under the pillow and you were so upset about it because you were expecting loose change instead. It took quite the while to convince you that dollars are better than loose change now all you want is dollars, no quarters allowed. That worked out well didn't it, NOT! For the next tooth you lost we put a DD gift under your pillow (because you know, we're parents of the year and we did not forget to get cash out) and well, as expected you didn't take that as well as we may have thought you would. So both of your tooth fairy experiences have not been what you have expected my sweet boy, I'm sorry for that.

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Of course that I cannot forget to mention your beautiful curly hair. You have yet to get a big boy hair cut since birth and your hair now is down to your butt. We have all agreed, yourself included, to donate your hair but I'm not too sure how that works. Another thought is to even out your hair since you have different lengths right now then allow it to continue growing and donating it after but we will be donating it for sure, God willing. 

Well my handsome boy I think that's it for your five years old update. I skipped your 4 years old update but we are back on track now. I pray tons of blessings over your life and I pray that God grants you a long healthy, happy, and peaceful life. I love you to the moon and back sweet Adrian. Thank you for bringing so much joy to our lives

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Love Always, 

Mommy




October 11, 2018

I’m a Registered Nurse!



Y’all! My journey is finally over. It truly is surreal to me. I still can't believe it to be quite honest. You all know how crazy and wild this journey has been. Many tears shed, many sleepless nights, many precious moments that I missed out on. And now, as I wake up each morning to get ready with my new nursing scrubs and as I'm going through this orientation with a new title on my badge is like wow, I did it. I really did it. God is good! several years ago this day felt like it would never come and here I am now, a week into my nursing career. 

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My nclex experience was not the greatest. I graduated August 9th and although I had gotten the green light from my school I didn’t get authorization to test from the state till five weeks later. Then I scheduled my nclex for two weeks after that, on October 5th. It was all very confusing and frustrating but nonetheless it was all worth the wait.

Early September I got a 30 days subscription for Uworld. I was working on it slowly the first couple of weeks but then when I scheduled my nclex and reality kicked in I started to really do questions upon questions. I had aimed for 150 questions a day with reviewing the rationales whether I had gotten it right or wrong. But as the test date neared and I started to panic I found myself doing anywhere between 150-300 questions a day. It was tough guys. Very tough. But I broke it down in sections. I would do a set of 75 then take a break then another set of 75 and repeat. My entire day was spent doing questions. I truly do believe that Uworld prepared me well. Whether it was the very detailed rationales or doing so many questions in one day (because I ended up getting all 265 questions you know) all that matters is that I passed and I am now a licensed registered nurse!

I also did lots and lots of praying. I truly do believe in the power of prayer, and so this victory is due to many factors.

Now in regards to taking the actual nclex let me just say that I found this test to be the hardest test ever. Maybe because I have major testing anxiety and because I’m a super slow tester with a short attention span. I felt that I was doing good. But when I had reach question 133 I was starting to doubt myself which led my mind to wonder talking away from my precious timed test, which then brought on even more anxiety and feeling overwhelmed. I ended up taking a five minutes break (or so I thought it was 5 minutes) because I had to shake it off. Then I started to run out of time and I started to rush through reading and answering the questions, worse thing to ever do. I honestly felt that I was going to have to repeat this test again. It was the worse feeling ever. I felt so defeated. Yet somehow, deep down, I felt that I had pass. But I knew that this would only possible through God’s grace because WOW! That test felt like the hardest thing to ever exist hahaha. 

Nonetheless, here I am starting my career as a nurse. So for anyone that ever comes across this post I encourage you to read my journey through nursing school. It was not easy, it was not fun, it took a lot of perseverance but I never gave up. It didn't even crossed my mind, it was never an option. Never. I am so glad I pulled through, I am so glad to be living this reality, my reality. 



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