32 weeks ago we found out we were 4wks pregnant. Today at 36 weeks we have 4wks to go. Y’all this is surreal.
So a little update. We still don’t know the gender. We’ve been hanging strong and I’m so proud of us for that. Now I’m not going to lie. A couple of times throughout this journey I’ve went a little crazy from not knowing and wanting to know really bad! I mean I even tried looking through my chart to see the ultrasound pictures but nada. I guess they take it serious when you tell them you don’t want to know the gender 🤷🏽♀️ but then I was fine. I realized this pregnancy has a very high probability that it’ll be our last baby that I host inside my body and I’ll probably never get the chance to try this again so like the saying goes, “why leave for tomorrow what you can do today”. Then as soon as I hit 30 weeks I just felt so relaxed about this whole thing and things have been pretty well since then. I love this baby sooo much already and I look forward to holding it and cuddling it and smothering it with love, lots of love and kisses.
In regards to symptoms this pregnancy I honestly cannot complain. I have yet to throw up at all. I had some episodes of nausea but it was mostly in the beginning when I went too long without eating or even drinking. On occasion I still get nauseated but I can usually trace it back to either under eating or over eating. I’ve also had a bad taste in my mouth since the very beginning. I can’t really explain it, it was just such a weird taste that I couldn’t get rid off at all. Eating gum would help but as soon as the gum went bad the taste came right back. Thankfully I haven’t felt that in a couple of months now. The most I’ve had to deal with is a little bit of heart burn and acid reflux when I burp. Recently I’ve been dealing with some swelling but I guess that’s expected at this point in pregnancy and with the heat. I’ve also been experiencing some left upper abdominal pain especially after pulling a muscle in that area at work. Lower back pain has also been a constant struggle this pregnancy. I am thankful for thse symptoms because I know it could be a lot worse. It can always be worse.
The boys feelings about a little sibling. Well, Steven jr wasn’t thrilled. He said that he was too big already for us to be having a baby at his age hahaha. And when he found out this baby was coming in July... we’ll friends that didn’t go well. We were supposed to take a trip for his 13th Birthday and obviously that wasn’t going to happen anymore. Lately however he’s been better about this baby. He’ll rub my belly and ask about the baby’s growth and he asks every time I see the OB if I found out the gender. He wants to know so bad but he doesn’t really say what he thinks it is. Adrian in the other hand he’s has been all about his baby brother or sister. He is so affectionate towards the belly/baby. He talks to it, rubs it, kiss it, you name it. I know without a doubt that he is going to be the best big brother to this baby. At first he would say he wanted a baby sister and recently he’s been saying he wants a baby brother. He also want to be present for the delivery because he’s super curious about how baby’s come out of their mommy’s tummy , Ha! he is so funny and innocent.
Hubby is obviously excited for this babe as well. We were trying for quite the while before it finally happened and when I told him he was definitely surprised and not expecting it although he knew it was coming. He has been super sweet with this pregnancy as well. He spoils me rotten and loves to rub the belly and talk to the baby. He's done pretty good with not knowing the gender as well. A lot better than me actually. Lately he's been saying he wishes he'd know already but for the most part he's always so busy he probably doesn't even have time to stress about it, unlike me.
Baby names. I think we have settle on names for both gender. I’m excited to share that once this baby is born. Is funny how both names start with the letter C so we’ve been referring to it as Baby C. Both names have special meaning to us, more so me but we are both on the same page about them and I look forward to meting this babes and seeing if he/she looks like the name we picked.
We have yet to work on a nursery this time around. Even though we have extra rooms that we can use for a nursery we are also in the process of looking for a house and I'd hate to start a nursery here just to do it over again in a new place. So baby will be rooming in with us for the time being because that's how it goes in the beginning anyways. We have a basinet for our room and I'm waiting for a changing table and rocking chair to arrive. I hope that we find a place while I'm not on leave but if that doesn't haven we are going to analyze the situation and decide whether or not set up the crib in AJs old room and go from there. I have lots of plans for this baby's nursery, boy or girl I have it all covered.
Other than that friends that's pretty much it. I've gained quite the pounds with this pregnancy. I feel huge and people tell me all the time that I look big, how nice no? I hope to bounce back to my pre pregnancy weight after delivery but I know it is going to take a lot of discipline from my part. In the meantime however the countdown is own. Baby will be considered full term next week and as long as it doesn't come on Steven Jr's birthday this baby is welcome to arrive when he/she wants :)
Once upon a time I dreamed of taking a trip to Europe. There was also a time when I dreamt of graduating from nursing school by my thirtieth birthday. But as we know, life doesn’t always turn out the way we imagine it to be. Which can be a blessing in its own way of course.
I thought. Maybe I can plan on doing a Europe trip as my graduation gift! And so I began to play with the idea and bringing hubby aboard. He wasn't for it much though saying, the kids won't enjoy that kind of trip Pam. I asked their opinion and he was right, they weren't interested at all. But come on, what 6 and 12 years old would? So we did a California trip instead with them. After ending up pregnant in the Fall I just knew a trip to Europe would be out of the plans for a very long time. Unless... I made it a couple's trip ;)
I played with the idea. Consulted my OB about it and when I got the okay I decided to not only make it a graduation/birthday gift to myself but to also make it a “Thank You” trip for hubby for supporting me so much over the years (mainly financially). And while we were at it it would also count as our Babymoon 
it was perfect!
I started my research, gathered itinerary ideas, created a budget plan, etc. Once we got back from our Cali trip I booked flights and a few weeks later I booked our hotel rooms. At this point hubby had no idea! I know I’m crazy! Hahaha. Don’t get me wrong I was nervous. Nervous of his reaction because I knew Europe was not on his plans or the near future for him and two well, who wouldn’t be nervous. Europe was definitely out of my comfort zone. It was a lot different then booking a trip to the Caribbean or a place where we at least spoke the language. But I kept on with the plans. After booking the flights there was no turning back.
I had planned to surprise hubby with the trip news and details for Valentine’s Day. A couple of weeks before that however hubby started to talk about starting the process for house buying. We had been saving up since I started working as a nurse. All my paychecks were going to savings and we continued to live like we did prior to my finishing school like that extra income didn’t even exist. But that’s a topic for another day my friends. And so I started to really freak out about hubby’s reaction on my Europe splurge. I honestly didn’t spend much on flights and hotels. I found pretty good deals and I was sure it wasn’t going to affect our saving plans at all, I had it all figured out it was just a matter of having hubby see it the way I saw it
All in all I have to say that I expected his reaction to be more “shocked” or maybe even a little bit more excited, crap I would have even taken a little angry emotion. His actual reaction was that of “playing off being shocked”. He definitely questioned me a lot about what was I thinking but I know my hubby and He didn’t react like I thought he would. Deep down I have a feeling that he knew. There was the possibility of someone I had told my plans to telling someone else and that someone else could have told him. But whatever it is what it is 🤷🏽♀️.
Now we’re back from our trip. It was amazing! I loved it more than I thought I would and I am very happy to inform y’all that hubby is now a pro Europe guy and we’re already planning our next Europe trip with the boys! And of course the new babes. I can honestly say that he genuinely had a great time and loved it just as much as I did.
Now, you must be wondering what European countries did we visit? Well friends our first Europe trip included Paris and Barcelona. So make sure to check back in for the details and our experiences there. I cannot wait to blog about it all!
I thought. Maybe I can plan on doing a Europe trip as my graduation gift! And so I began to play with the idea and bringing hubby aboard. He wasn't for it much though saying, the kids won't enjoy that kind of trip Pam. I asked their opinion and he was right, they weren't interested at all. But come on, what 6 and 12 years old would? So we did a California trip instead with them. After ending up pregnant in the Fall I just knew a trip to Europe would be out of the plans for a very long time. Unless... I made it a couple's trip ;)
I started my research, gathered itinerary ideas, created a budget plan, etc. Once we got back from our Cali trip I booked flights and a few weeks later I booked our hotel rooms. At this point hubby had no idea! I know I’m crazy! Hahaha. Don’t get me wrong I was nervous. Nervous of his reaction because I knew Europe was not on his plans or the near future for him and two well, who wouldn’t be nervous. Europe was definitely out of my comfort zone. It was a lot different then booking a trip to the Caribbean or a place where we at least spoke the language. But I kept on with the plans. After booking the flights there was no turning back.
I had planned to surprise hubby with the trip news and details for Valentine’s Day. A couple of weeks before that however hubby started to talk about starting the process for house buying. We had been saving up since I started working as a nurse. All my paychecks were going to savings and we continued to live like we did prior to my finishing school like that extra income didn’t even exist. But that’s a topic for another day my friends. And so I started to really freak out about hubby’s reaction on my Europe splurge. I honestly didn’t spend much on flights and hotels. I found pretty good deals and I was sure it wasn’t going to affect our saving plans at all, I had it all figured out it was just a matter of having hubby see it the way I saw it
All in all I have to say that I expected his reaction to be more “shocked” or maybe even a little bit more excited, crap I would have even taken a little angry emotion. His actual reaction was that of “playing off being shocked”. He definitely questioned me a lot about what was I thinking but I know my hubby and He didn’t react like I thought he would. Deep down I have a feeling that he knew. There was the possibility of someone I had told my plans to telling someone else and that someone else could have told him. But whatever it is what it is 🤷🏽♀️.
Now we’re back from our trip. It was amazing! I loved it more than I thought I would and I am very happy to inform y’all that hubby is now a pro Europe guy and we’re already planning our next Europe trip with the boys! And of course the new babes. I can honestly say that he genuinely had a great time and loved it just as much as I did.
Now, you must be wondering what European countries did we visit? Well friends our first Europe trip included Paris and Barcelona. So make sure to check back in for the details and our experiences there. I cannot wait to blog about it all!
Why joy and not happiness?
As I was doing my research on why Joy should be my word for 2019 I came across this explanation. Unfortunately I did not note exactly where I got it from but it really spoke to me.
"Joy and happiness are wonderful feelings to experience, but are very different. Joy is more consistent and is cultivated internally. It comes when you make peace with who you are, why you are and how you are, whereas happiness tends to be externally triggered and is based on other people, things, places, thoughts and events."
This year it was hard to decide on that special word. And to be quite honest when I first saw the word I wasn’t completely sold on it. I mean having joy is cool and all but Joy didn’t scream at me like past words of the year had. And so I kept fighting it and searching for another word to help me grow through 2019. But here’s the thing, having joy is not like having happiness. Joy comes from within. Having joy means you have accepted who you are and have decided to be joyful regardless of what is happening in your life. It is a choice to see the good in any situation which in my opinion is a pretty good goal to make for the year. With each word of past year I have experienced the best and the worse of it all. It's true what they say, be careful what you wish for, or in this case what you pray for, because God sure has a unique way to grant you your prayers. So I am sure that it will be challenging to find joy in the everyday but I am up for the challenge. Or so I hope to be.
Past Words of the Year:
2015 Grace
2016 Faith
2017 Healing
2018 Patience
We are twenty weeks away from becoming a family of five!
Yes, that's right. We're pregnant! Well, we've been pregnant. For 20 weeks now.
Initially I had all this amazing ways I wanted to document this pregnancy. It was going to be awesome, and with this being more likely than not our last baby, I had a goal to enjoy every second of every minute with our sweet baby regardless of of bad it was. And well, yeah, that did not happen. But I have been pretty good about documenting weekly pictures of the bump so that counts for something right :)
Coincidentally today happens to be our 20 weeks ultrasound appointment. But guess what? We're keeping the gender of this bundle of joy a secret until delivery. Or so that's the plan. Our family and friends are not happy about it, which I get. I do. I keep thinking though, there aren't many surprises of this magnitude in life. I admit however that it would have probably been easier to do this the first time around instead of the third time and being parents to two boys already.
Nonetheless we' are super excited! I have a couple of posts to follow so be sure to follow up.
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