The past week has been a mixture of ups and downs but I'm determine to make each moment count! Enough of regretting the things I didn't do or wishing to do things differently. The things that happens in our lives are meant to happen for many reasons. To teach us a lesson, to bring us back down to reality, to make us a better person, to make us appreciate all that we have and often take for granted. That's what's been happening in our house this past week. I think all of us, in one way or the other, have learned something and started being more appreciative for the things that we have. 

The husband ended up with truck trouble that left him with a few days off from work. We took advantage of that and took our oldest to Dorney Park (twice this week), an amusement park in our town, and The Da Vinci Center, a science center for kids with awesome things even adults enjoy. Earlier in the year they had Human Bodies Reveal which was pretty cool! Real human bodies exposing every single organ, muscle, bone, you name it! One of my favorite was the blood vessels going to every inch of the body. Sadly they didn't allow cameras in there. Over the summer they have Grossology, the impolite science of the human body. This one is pretty cool as well. It talks about bacteria that cause different smells, how the digestive system works, why boogers are the way they are, why farts vibrate on their way out lol. It's something alright. I enjoyed it probably a tad bit more then the kids ;) 

As if that isn't enough I decided to back off from the social media world. To find myself and my purpose in life, be a better mother, wife, daughter, friend. No Facebook, no Instagram. What will I do with myself?! I know, I'm going to make each second count with those I love. I went back and forth debating whether to keep away from blogging as well. At least for the time being but somehow here I am still. It may be for a few more weeks or months. But until I make a final decision I will keep documenting my life my favorite way :)

What have you learned lately? Any life events that made you realize something important? 

You see, I'm the type of gal that takes too much on. I like to cook, I like to bake, I want to be home for my kids, cater to my husband, help out my mom, be there for my friends, I want to obtain a college degree. One that would allow me to help others. Like truly help them in a time of need, when they are most vulnerable. I decided to cloth diaper and exclusively breastfeed. And so on, so forth. When you add up all the things that I like/want to do with the things I have to do, well we run into a problem. Procrastination. And like my husband calls it, a job half-assed. Boy does he get mad.

I'm sorry. I can't help it. I try I really do but I get distracted to easily. Or like I like to think, I work better under pressure. Ha! who am I kidding. I mostly panic under pressure lol (makes you wonder about a career in the medical field no?)

My problem is that I dream about this perfect life with a clean house, well behaved kids that I do fun activities with, a Pinterest Inspired home cooked meal, a bedtime routine, and quality time with my husband that I forget about how real life is and everything that comes in between. Like a run to the grocery store in the middle of making dinner and cleaning the dishes because I don't have a specific ingredient that requires kids getting put in and out of car seats etc. So something that could take me 20 mins to do is now taking me 40 mins.  Better yet a call from my mom while I'm doing laundry or cleaning that requires me to translate on a three-way for her that will take an hour of my time in which I need to be seated to concentrate. Or even when is feeding time and I decide to watch some TV for the time being and then the show gets too good and I can't seem to walk away to put another load of laundry. Is the little things like this that set me behind and then a whole day is gone and I feel like I haven't accomplished anything. Then I say, well I'll get up early tomorrow and finish this and that and what do you know I forgot that I have an appointment tomorrow morning. Geez, is just never ending. Now mind you this are the simple day to day things I procrastinate on. You don't want to get me started on the big stuff. Like school.

I know that these things are an easy fix but you really won't understand the problem unless you were to shadow me for a day or of course, unless you are my husband and have to deal with it daily. I need to prioritize and stay organized and on a schedule. I have real issues with putting things off that eventually become worse for me to complete. I feel like every new day I wake up to consist of me catching up from the day (s) before. And it shouldn't be that way. I'm a grown woman with plenty of responsibilities that I need to be on top of. I'm hoping that my current situation help me to realize that procrastinating is not going to take me place in life. I need to start making changes today. Right Now! Ok maybe tomorrow, is kind of late now.

Seriously though 26 years old Pamela, this has got to stop. In just a few years you're going to realize this was wrong and useless and is going to be too late to fix. Pushing your nursing career even further should be your reality check. The time to make changes have arrived.

Five years from now I'll be 31. It'll be the beginning of what I hope will be another amazing decade. 

I hope to be completely done with school and have my career started. No matter what that career is by then. 

I hope to have my third and final child. Or my twins ;) 

I hope to be more in love with my husband and vice versa. To be living the happy marriage I had envision. Or at least something similar. To have had continued with our weekly date nights and that we dedicate time to just us and our marriage. 

I hope to be in our dream house or the very least in the one before our dream home. 

I hope to have traveled to Europe or be getting ready to do so. 

My boys will be 12 and 5. Holy mother! In just 5 short years we'll be saying goodbye to the childhood and welcoming the teenage years. Yea, I don't want to think that far ahead just yet. 

I hope my family is in great health and content with we're we are and who we are. 

I hope to be debt free. 

I hope I've learned from my mistakes and that I'll be a better person. Better wife. Better mother. Better daughter. Better sister. Better cousin. Better friend. 

I hope that no matter what destiny has prepared for me that I do not lose myself and that I'm still the same good hearted girl I am today. That I put my family first and cater to their every need. 

Back in March I helped a dear cousin plan a gender reveal. But not just a gender reveal. An Easter Themed gender reveal. And it was Awesome! The food. The games. The people. The anticipation. She did an amazing job with her ideas. I just have to document it here.

 
the beautiful set up and creative ideas. The basket containing the eggs is a game. Inside the eggs you will find 2 "winners" ticket which no ones knows about. The winners will move on to another battle of eating fruits covered in whip cream. The other tickets say things like "you're a loser, tricked you, sorry next time, etc etc". This set up was fun because it had several ways to tell the gender. this include the cake, cupcakes, eggs, and the large golden egg by the cupcakes. Little did anyone know what really contained the gender hahaha.


   
brothers, sister, nephew, parents


   
the  dirty diaper guess game. They look too  excited don't they lol


   
part of the crew expresing their guesses


   
mi beautiful prima



 
best friend, sister and mom/grandma-to-be




 
the winners of the egg reveal game moving on to the final part of the game who will determine who opens the envelope containing the gender.


 
a very nosy and surprised mom-to-be.


   
some very excited family


  
the happy momma-to-be


 

and of course hat I had to throw in a picture of my peanut at almost 3mos.

You see. The reason why I decided to blog about it today is not only because this post got lost in the list of drafts I have. But because tomorrow will be the day that she meets her precious baby girl. She's not due for a couple of weeks still but her baby is stubborn. And by no means wants to get out of her mommy's belly so other measures had to be taken. Meaning that baby is breech and my cousin needs a C-section as method of delivery. 

I'm confident that things will be just fine. So to my dear cousin, relax Chica. You're in great hands. 

We can't wait to meet you Hermione! You are so loved and you're not even here yet. 

Love,

Your favorite Titi ;)