Thursday, April 19, 2018

My Perfectly Imperfect Husband

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  Once upon a time, in the midsts of some trials, I had a wonderful stranger reach out to me and pray over me, my husband, our marriage, and our family. I remember it like it was yesterday. We were at a baseball game and I got this call by said stranger. I took the time to speak to her because I figured it was God’s way of reaching out to me. And indeed it was.

We spoke for over an hour. At one point I was standing by a tree trying to get some shade and as I looked up in front of me I had the most perfect view of my husband. In that exact moment she said, you have your trials which are making you a better woman and a better christian and although you don’t understand why things are the way they are don’t forget that you and your husband are still individual persons at the end of the day and God has a plan for him. He has his own trials and his own testimony. God has a plan for him and the things that are happening to him are happening for a reason. He is meant to go through the things that he has gone and is going through because in the long run, God will use it for good.

Her words touched me. I never looked at it that way. I never thought of our trials as individual trials. It was definitely a reality check for me. Since then I’ve been more aware of the things happening in our lives as individuals not just as a family.

I say all this because my husband is amazing. He is far from perfect but he is a dream come true. He is Humble, hard working, loving, and caring. He never stops. He’s always on the go taking care of him self whether is by eating right and working out, he’s involved with our children in all areas of their lives. And I mean like every area. I am both lucky and blessed to have him as my parenthood partner. And he’s always going the extra mile to help me out. He’s willing to cook, clean, take a day off to stay with the kids, the list goes on. But most importantly he’s always pushing me to be the best version of me possible. 

I don’t think he truly knows the blessing that he has been in my life. I want to tell the world how amazing of a man I had the privilege of marrying but I can’t brag, not in social media, not to those that wouldn’t understand or those would take it the wrong way. Instead I’ve decided to post it here so that our children and grandchildren can read about this awesome man. I have decided to be thankful to God for this precious gift. For this man that although very far from perfect is truly the most perfectly imperfect man I have ever met.

My love, I love you beyond words. I look forward to spending the rest of my life with you. Of growing old together and reminiscing on the good old days and the not so good old days. Thank you for all that you do for me, for us, for our little family. I wish tons of blessings upon you. I pray that you never loose your humbleness and that you never stop caring and trying your hardest. I pray that you reach your full potential in this journey that we call life. I love you far beyond the moon. 🌙

Thursday, April 12, 2018

Psych Rotation



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I loved psych! I feel that psych is full of interesting diagnosis that truly do impact the personalities we encounter out in the real world. I've always loved it, at one point during my pre reqs days I contemplated minoring in psych so I chose to take psych courses as my free electives. I never proceeded with that plan because schooling for me was already taking too long to finish but if I do ever decide to have a change of heart I have a good amount of class credits towards it.   

I honestly did not know what to expect or what I would be learning. All I could think about was depression, anxiety, bipolar, and some Personality disorders. And even with that little did I know that a personality disorder what not what I thought it was. 

The whole rotation was such a great experience. I honestly learned so much and was exposed to so many things that I didn’t fully understand. The course was so much different compared to the regular med/surg rotation and the disease process. I was very intrigued and this experience will stay with me for the rest of my career, as I am able to see patients from a different perspective. I never thought of it that way but these kind of patients are complex all on its own then to add other health issues on top of whatever else they are dealing with mentally is very challenging.

Clinical at first was definitely intimidating. We had our psych simulation that first week which was meant to give us an idea of the things that might happen while we are there and boy oh boy was I shitting bricks, excuse my french. The clinical units experience for me was so much difficult. For starter I simply didn’t know how to interact with the patients. I didn’t know what to expect, what lines not to cross on term of communication and asking them questions. I just felt out of place. Then as the weeks passed by I started to feel a bit more comfortable and less “shy” to start up conversations with the patients. I’d say more than anything it was frustrating not being able to help them more. Mental health disorders are not just a quick fix with a simple pill and some adjustments. I truly felt for the patients and more often then not I’d imagine myself in their place. Whether it was a depressed patient, or a manic patient, or simply an autistic patient. I can’t imagine a day in their shoes and thanks to this rotation I will be more empathetic to the needs of these patients in the future. More importantly I have learned to be less judgmental.

For my community experience I had to complete seven hours of anonymous meetings. I attended narcotics anonymous, alcoholic anonymous, and eating anonymous. These too were quite the experience and I'll just say that I now have a great appreciation to the groups and the people who find the courage and the dedication to attend and take that step to change their lives. Addiction is not easy, addiction is real and as nurses we need to understand it a little better in order to offer the proper care that those patients require. I also attended day programs and inpatient treatment programs.

My overall psych rotation was phenomenal, the instructors were amazing and very knowledgable, the lectures were always interesting, and as you've already read there was never a dull moment in the clinical setting. I honestly find myself falling in love with nursing even more after each rotation :)



Sunday, March 11, 2018

Inspired

The one thing I love about my current job besides my coworkers are my patients. And I mean those that are 70+. It wasn’t always this way. I had to learn to love them by actually taking the time to sit with them and learn about them. More recently I have learned to see them with different eyes (Thanks Prof M.F.)

I’m in the Gero rotation now and being able to better understand the aging process and what things are not considered “normal part of aging” has really helped me gain better understanding of these patients and be more patient with them. Not that I wasn’t patient before but I’d always thought of my grandparents and family being in their position and how I’d like them to be treated given their situation. However, now I can put those comparisons aside and see them as who they are, individuals with lots of cool stories and wisdom.

That being said, today I took care of this 86 years old lady and she made an impact in my life. I’ve taken care of many patients her age and even older (100+ years) but there was something about her that made me feel different. Gracious. Thankful. Blessed. I was honestly having a rough day after my day yesterday and decided that maybe spending a little time talking to my patients today would help distract me a little. And it sure did. She went on and on and on about her life stories and things that she had done and dealt with. Then she said, “I could write a book about my life. Actually, somedays when I sit on the beach (she’s from down south and was in town visiting) I wish I could write about my life so that my grandkids and their grandkids can read my story”. And that’s when it hit me.

That’s why I blog.

Something that started simply as a way to document my wedding journey has turned into this amazing blog where I share a lot about my life as a married women, my husband, marriage, our children, my journey through nursing school, our travels and adventures, my frustrations, and even some personal things. There are days that I don’t blog often, there are days that I wonder if I should continue to write as I feel my content is not that of interest to many. Yet today I was also reminded of the many times I read other bloggers say that when you decide to start a blog to make sure that you stay true to yourself and always always write for you!

I don’t know how long this blog will be up for or or how often I’ll be able to write on it but as long as it’s focus continues to be on stories about my married life, I will do my very best to leave my future grandchildren something they can remember me by. Better yet, something that will allow them to know me. Like really know me and about me and what better way than through my own words :)

Thank you cute little lady for keeping me inspired.