Thursday, January 4, 2018

Hello 2018

Happy New Year!


I am beyond excited on starting this new year. Want to know why? Well because 2018 will be a year of lots of accomplishments, new beginnings, and lots of surprises. I just have this amazing and warm feeling that 2018 is going to be great and I'm looking forward on seeing what this year has to offer us. 2017 was a great year for sure. Personal growth, family boding, and special outings were just a few of my favorites. 

This year my goals are to continue on with some of the changes implemented last year, spend more time being present and involved and less time trying to capture a moment and uploading it to social media within seconds. I still plan on capturing the moment of course but that's where the being present and involved comes in. I've noticed that posting to social media takes away from enjoying the actual moment and that's something I want to work on this year. Like my friend Sarah over at Aloha EcoVibes says, I want to start living intentionally :)

Another big goal is to declutter this blog by removing meaningless posts from the past as well as trying to keep it up to date with special moments and thoughts that I want to remember. My goal is to post at least 4x a month which is realistic considering school still demands too many hours of my day.  That being said, I plan on writing about some of the things we did last year that I didn't have the time to either write about or post when I wanted to, as well as to continue with the My Storseries I had started last year. I was reading back on some of those posts and I loved the feelings it brought on so I definitely have to continue with those memories.

There are plenty of other goals I have in mind but I plan on introducing them here as they are completed and checked of my list so make sure you come by often to see what they are.

Wishing you all a prosperous and blessed 2018!


Sunday, December 17, 2017

Pediatric Rotation


My first specialty rotation after my second attempt at med/surg. 


Just my luck, more med/surg but for little humans. At first I didn't know how to take it. Should I be happy that I have pediatrics right after med/surg being that the concepts are pretty much the same? or Did I want a break from all the med/surg crap? Well at this point I didn't have a choice. Pediatrics it was. 

I'm not going to lie, it was hard. No room for procrastinating since it was only a 7 weeks rotation with 5 exams. It all started well, I passed my first, second, and third test without any issues. Again, lots of studying was involved. I had little anxiety and I was testing well. The material was easy to understand and I was actually interested in it. Then the cardiac section came along and although I loved it all I felt like I was back in med/surg the first time around. I couldn't get it all down packed and my anxiety started to creep back in. Let's just say it wasn't my best test out of the 5, but I had done well enough in the others that it really didn't affect me much. With one test to go I was having a little anxiety but it was all good in the end. As soon as the rotation finished we headed to celebrate. We were officially half way through the nursing program.

To be quite honest Peds isn't my thing. You need to have a calling for it and lots of patience, something that I lack even with being a mother. Don't get me wrong, the children were adorable and baths and changing diapers is a lot easier on little humans but giving meds to a toddler was not fun at all! Just imagine having to give meds to your toddler? Now imagine having to give meds to someone else's toddler? Big difference right. Yup, my point exactly.  I rather give meds to an adult any day :) Whatever little patience I have went out the window the first minutes. Aside from that however, interacting with them was so much fun. 

On another note, the very tiny humans were so much better to work with. I totally dig the NICU. I don't know exactly what it is about super tiny humans but I loved my experience in the NICU and I was lucky enough to have had an infant almost every day in clinical. It was definitively intimidating at first but I think that was more due to my lack of knowledge on their health issues and how to go about properly caring for them. 

I didn't care much about the office setting neither. I didn't feel like I was really helping anyone. It involved a lot of parent teaching and gathering information for the provider. Kidspeace, a behavioral health inpatient setting was not my cup of tea either. It was sad learning about their family/medical history and to try and help them was very challenging. Is not my calling. Home health care was interesting, maybe it's something I can do after several years of experience in a hospital setting and with the proper training but at this moment is not something I want to do right after graduating. My calling is with the newborn and the premature babies which goes hand in hand with my love for Obstetrics but that's a topic for another post.


On to my second specialty rotation :)

Thursday, December 7, 2017

1st Year of Nursing School *part 2

The second semester, which was Med/Surg nursing, well that was a different story. I was screwed from the very first test. Definitively no common sense there. Remember when I said that "I was indeed smart enough for nursing school"? well by the end of the first month I was back at questioning my abilities to succeed in nursing school. I had never cried so much, I had never dealt with so much anxiety and frustration. I even took a couple of trips o the doctor's office regarding my severe anxiety and of course right away they wanted to start me on medications but after taking pharmacology I wanted nothing to do with meds.

I decided to take more of a holistic and prayer approach to my anxiety issues but by that time it was a little too late. I needed a miracle to pass the class and unfortunately I didn't get it. I failed out of med/surg and I had never felt so defeated. I honestly didn't know what I was doing wrong. I felt that I was studying a lot but the question was, was I studying effectively? It was very disappointing failing and letting my family down. They were a great support system helping me in which ever way they were able and here I was failing.

I remember coming to my mom after my first test and telling her "Mom, I failed my test." her response, "Damn Pamela. Is that why you have been killing yourself studying for? Is that why I'm picking up your lack, so you can fail your test?" and then she walked away. I cried my ass out! that was just my first test. I didn't even dare telling my husband. Then at the end of the semester having to tell them I failed the course was torture. I honestly don't even remember how I told them or what was their reaction. And quite frankly I don't want to remember it either. 

There was not a doubt within me that believe that I wasn't meant to be a nurse, so failing out of nursing school or changing careers was not an option. I emailed my program coordinator and told her I was planning on returning and she was a sweetheart about it. I began to analyze the past semester and figure out what I was doing wrong to change it for the next time. First on the list was dealing with my anxiety. I was determined to get myself together, focus, and have realistic expectations. 

I had to wait five months before starting med/surg again. In between that time I found ways to study effectively and ways to reduce my anxiety, especially for testing days. Guys, nursing school is no joke. Nursing school has been the hardest thing I've ever done. Nursing school is about prioritizing, and that means your family is no longer #1 on the list. Nursing school is hard but it's not impossible if you are dedicated and focused. 

The things that helped me this time around was staying organized. I planned a lot, especially my studying time. I did most of my studying in the library, I didn't study in groups, I focused less on the actual disease itself and more on the nursing care/intervention and the teaching aspect of it. I practice nclex style questions, studied one topic at a time, and utilized the resources I had available without trying not to get overwhelmed by all the options. I'm a visual learner so YouTube was my best friend. 

I'm not proud about having to repeat the course, but I have to admit that repeating it was a lesson for sure. I went from grades in the 70s the first time around to grades in the high 80s, high 90s, and even a 100. I got a 100 on my Endocrine system exam! Things happen for a reason. Would I want to fail again? Hell No! Do I want to pass with a nice grade? You bet!

And that was my first (plus) year in nursing school. A complete roller coaster.