Thursday, December 7, 2017

1st Year of Nursing School *part 2

The second semester, which was Med/Surg nursing, well that was a different story. I was screwed from the very first test. Definitively no common sense there. Remember when I said that "I was indeed smart enough for nursing school"? well by the end of the first month I was back at questioning my abilities to succeed in nursing school. I had never cried so much, I had never dealt with so much anxiety and frustration. I even took a couple of trips o the doctor's office regarding my severe anxiety and of course right away they wanted to start me on medications but after taking pharmacology I wanted nothing to do with meds.

I decided to take more of a holistic and prayer approach to my anxiety issues but by that time it was a little too late. I needed a miracle to pass the class and unfortunately I didn't get it. I failed out of med/surg and I had never felt so defeated. I honestly didn't know what I was doing wrong. I felt that I was studying a lot but the question was, was I studying effectively? It was very disappointing failing and letting my family down. They were a great support system helping me in which ever way they were able and here I was failing.

I remember coming to my mom after my first test and telling her "Mom, I failed my test." her response, "Damn Pamela. Is that why you have been killing yourself studying for? Is that why I'm picking up your lack, so you can fail your test?" and then she walked away. I cried my ass out! that was just my first test. I didn't even dare telling my husband. Then at the end of the semester having to tell them I failed the course was torture. I honestly don't even remember how I told them or what was their reaction. And quite frankly I don't want to remember it either. 

There was not a doubt within me that believe that I wasn't meant to be a nurse, so failing out of nursing school or changing careers was not an option. I emailed my program coordinator and told her I was planning on returning and she was a sweetheart about it. I began to analyze the past semester and figure out what I was doing wrong to change it for the next time. First on the list was dealing with my anxiety. I was determined to get myself together, focus, and have realistic expectations. 

I had to wait five months before starting med/surg again. In between that time I found ways to study effectively and ways to reduce my anxiety, especially for testing days. Guys, nursing school is no joke. Nursing school has been the hardest thing I've ever done. Nursing school is about prioritizing, and that means your family is no longer #1 on the list. Nursing school is hard but it's not impossible if you are dedicated and focused. 

The things that helped me this time around was staying organized. I planned a lot, especially my studying time. I did most of my studying in the library, I didn't study in groups, I focused less on the actual disease itself and more on the nursing care/intervention and the teaching aspect of it. I practice nclex style questions, studied one topic at a time, and utilized the resources I had available without trying not to get overwhelmed by all the options. I'm a visual learner so YouTube was my best friend. 

I'm not proud about having to repeat the course, but I have to admit that repeating it was a lesson for sure. I went from grades in the 70s the first time around to grades in the high 80s, high 90s, and even a 100. I got a 100 on my Endocrine system exam! Things happen for a reason. Would I want to fail again? Hell No! Do I want to pass with a nice grade? You bet!

And that was my first (plus) year in nursing school. A complete roller coaster.

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Sunday, October 29, 2017

1st Year of Nursing School *Part 1

I'm officially into my second year of nursing school, with only nine months and three rotations to go. All through my prerequisites I questioned myself whether I would be good or smart enough for nursing school.And yes, although nursing school is no joke and takes a lot of your time, effort, and dedication I have come to the conclusion that I am both good and smart enough.

Let's start at the beginning. I've mentioned before that many times I have felt upset with myself for not going to college right after high school. But the more I move along through the program the more I am convinced that this was all part of God's master plan. I eep thinking that maybe if I would have done nursing school at 18yrs old I'd probably would have failed. I'm not trying to be negative about it or insinuate that I wasn't smart enough. I'm simply saying that I wasn't as dedicated or as prepared as I am now. 

Nursing 1, which was Fundamentals of Nursing, was fairly easy for me. I like to think that this was due to my employment at the hospital working as a nurse aide. I was familiar with many of the topics, safety, infection control, and protocols parts of it. Nursing concepts, care plans, prioritizing not so well. Familiarity to the other topics made a lot of it seemed like common sense and I say that only because that's what I dealt with a work. The style of nursing questions and taking Pharmacology at the same time as nursing as was the most difficult part of this semester. 

Clinical for nursing one was also pretty straight forward for me. It involved a lot of taking vitals, giving baths, and toileting patients which was what I did on a day to day basis at work. Now, collecting information, assessment, passing medication, and constantly being put on the spot when giving said medication, charting, and relating nursing concepts was something I as not used to. That took a lot of time to get used to. 

My assigned unit was a cardiac floor consisting mainly of med/sug patients with some sort of cardiac problem, step-down patients which is simply patients that require a higher level of care but not high enough to be on a critical care unit, and it included a section of either 8 or 10 rooms exclusively for patients who had just had open heart surgery. These patients would be there several days being closely monitored and then be moved to another room out of the open heart area. It was a great experience from beginning to end. I had the opportunity to insert foley, give meds and hang IV with my instructor or a nurse, give injections, etc. the list goes on. 

The best part of this programmed is that it is part of a hospital so the clinical experience are amazing!

I don't want to make this post super long so stay tuned for part 2 of my first year in nursing school. 

To be continue...


Wednesday, October 25, 2017

Summer 2017 *Highlights

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* Trip to Ocean City, MD in June and August. For the June trip my childhood best friend and her little family joined us. In August hubby's sister was in town from California with her husband and children and they wanted to take the trip to OC since it had been years that they had visited and so we tagged along for that one as well. As always, it was a well deserved beach getaway.

* Steven graduated from the fifth grade and finished his last year in the program El Systema where he played the Viola for three years and taught himself to play the guitar. It was a bittersweet moment as that marked both the end and the beginning of a new stage in both of our life, Steven entering the preteens/middle school years as we embarked on being the parents of a teenager wagon.

* We had great baseball season. We made it to the championship as well as the All Star games and although we did not win in the All Star games it was such an amazing experience for all the kids. I am kind of looking forward to next season :)

* Hubby and I celebrated six years of marriage. I still can't believe that we are where we are today after all of our problems shortly after marriage. God is good y'all, God is good. 

* After two years of not getting our family pictures we were able to do so over the summer. I love to freeze certain moments in time to look back on as the years moves on.

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*I successfully completed my med/surg rotation in nursing school. There's more to this story so make sure to stop by and read about my struggles in nursing school thus far, which will be blogged soon.

*Weddings, birthdays, pool time, gardening, grilling, and several camping trips filled up our summer agenda.

*My little cousin came from the Dominican Republic to play in a baseball tournament and after it as over he stayed with us until late August. He was able to come with us to OC and experience summer here in the sates. He was very quiet and reserved and it was like pulling teeth to get him chime in a conversation so I really hoped he enjoyed his time here. The boys and him got along really good, specially AJ. I'm sure he went home and had tons of stories to share about my little crazy family :)

*I am proud to say that as of August 2017 I am an official USA Citizen!

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This was definitely a busy summer, or at least it felt like it. 



Wednesday, September 20, 2017

Grow Old With Me...

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The best is yet to be.

It's been 6 years now that we've been on this journey we call our married life. And with each passing year I'm reminded that this journey will probably never reach a destination because in some way or another we continue to grow and evolve into different yet better versions of ourselves. We continue to grow, we continue to mature, and we continue to love and appreciate even more the little things we have done that has made us fall in love. 

It has not been a walk down the park, but if I'd had the opportunity to do it again I'd still chose you and I'd still love only you. 

This year feels different however. I don't know what it is, maybe it was the first 6 years of bad luck and the curse finally broke. For the first time since our wedding I feel that we are finally on the same page. We are able to communicate effectively and fight fair, well most times anyways.

I love that I have finally realized that there's more to a marriage then being married, having kids, and owning a house. Being married is like Anne Taylor Fleming says "two people trying to dance a duet and two solos at the same time". Being married is learning to accept and still love each other as we evolve into mature and even more unique individuals. Just because you reach adulthood doesn't mean you stop maturing, rather you continue to change your train of thought and the way you view life. Is not that your personality changes, more so your priorities and that's an adjustment your other half have to learn to accept.

Marriage involves going through many phases. The dating and honeymoon phase, child rearing years, buying or building a house (which I hear is one of the most difficult), career changes, children moving out, reconnecting, health problems, major life changes/crisis, the list goes on. And lets not get started on the in-between. But when you surpass all that that's when you know the love is real and long lasting.

I look forward to sitting on the sand at the beach at 80 years old as we talk about the awful years and the awesome years in our marriage. I want to tell our children, grandchildren, and great-greatchildren a love story worth telling. I want to break the cycle of divorce and multiple re-marriages. I want to prove that it is worth staying married through the not so good years because that's were a successful marriage derives from.

Happy late anniversary love of my life, may God grant us with many years of real love, peace, health, and happiness.


Sunday, September 17, 2017

Half Way

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Half way through my 30th year of life I also find myself being half way through nursing school. Those who know about my school journey know that it has been a very long one. Ten years to be exact.

WOW!  Ten years!

Crazy I know. I can't even believe it. Actually I have mixed feeling about that.

Growing up I always dreamed of going to college but I was never sure what I wanted to study. Criminal law was always an option but I made it through one month of college back in 2005 and then thought "this is not for me". I find it both frustrating and satisfying the road my life took from there. Some days I wish that I would have gone to college and would have graduated within the 2-4 years mark, but then I think well maybe I wouldn't have been in the nursing field. It took years for me to realize how passionate I was about it and here I am ten years later half way through nursing school. 

It hasn't been nothing easy. Nursing school is no joke. I'm always broke because I can't work too much. I spend most of the hours in my day either in lecture or studying for an exam. I yell at my kids more often then I'd like to admit. I'm stressed more often then not. I'm constantly eating, better yet eating junk. I've have developed crazy testing anxiety. My marriage have felt like a roller-coaster. I depend on my mom to pick up so much of my slack. I don't get enough sleep and I'm definitely addicted to coffee by now. And as of recent I have developed chronic headaches. 

On the plus side of that I have learned so much! 

Last week we had our recognition/half way mark ceremony and it felt so good. I am so proud of my self and the example I am giving my boys. I couldn't have made it this far without the support of my family, lots of praying, and the new friendships I've made.

I know we still have several months for the year to be over but I am so ready for 2018 to get here. It is going to be an amazing year!

"If you haven't thought of quitting, your dreams are not big enough."

Tuesday, May 9, 2017

Note to self

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•Prayers are always answered. Some prayers are answered faster than others. Some are answered through scripture, a person, an object, or a situation. But prayers are always answered so don't give up on praying. 

•Family is the only person who will truly ever have your back. By family I mean siblings (and your parents). You may fight, get on each other's nerves, take each other for granted, judge each other and even be jealous of one another, but at the end of the day family is who will have your back and also back you up. So love them unconditionally. 

•True love is not living a fairytale where everything is perfect and revolves around you. True love is trying your very best every single day, putting your partners needs before your own, fighting and making up before the sun goes down, having disagreements but choosing to make whatever decision makes your partner happy, taking responsibility for your actions and asking for forgiveness, forgiving from the heart, and trying not to strangle your partner while they sleep because you can't imagine a life without them. 

•Motherhood is the most amazing and rewarding yet frustrating experience of a lifetime! 

•Friends. Well, a good friendship comes once every hundredth year. Don't waste your time trying to have a relationship with someone who's intensions are not the same as you.

Thursday, April 13, 2017

Things I want to work on the first year in my 30s

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I'm 30! OMG, I am 30!

When did that happen? Oh yeah, just a few weeks ago hahaha. I'm so excited to take on this next decade of life. I have so many plans and goals to achieve.

To get started, I've been thinking about some things that I want to focus on this next year. I'm an adult now. Things are serious y'all.

So here we go, here's some things I want to work on and do this first year in my thirties.

Love myself. I mean like really love myself and learn to accept and be happy with the little imperfections. I want to stop comparing myself to others and appreciate what I've been blessed with.

Creating a routine. My life is chaotic being that I'm still working on my nursing degree so lots of my time is being taken up by school work on top of being a wife and a mother. All the more reasons to be super proud of myself when it is all done.

Get to places on time. Be better organized. Read more books (kind of hard with nursing books on my back). Do some volunteer work. Donate blood. Read the bible daily. Make time for those that matter. Spend alone time, enjoy it, and do more soul searching. Spend less time on social media (this is almost impossible in this generation right?)

 Pray More, Worry Less, Be Positive!

Really focus on my health. I hear that is not as easy to lose weight with little effort at this stage so I have to really hop on it now. I would like to exercise at least 3x a week and record monthly progress. Eat healthier meals and less fast food -meal planning will help with this. Do a yoga/meditate challenge.

Send 30 handwritten notes to 30 people I appreciate. Thoroughly document the first year of my 30s.

Do a photography challenge. I'm eyeing Project 365 but it sort of intimidates me. Learn to properly edit photos. Run a 5/10K. Take a weekend trip to the Poconos (either winter or summer). Learn to swim properly. See a Broadway show. Learn to dance salsa. Take the kids to Disney World (I think I want this more for myself) ;-)

Learn to type with two hands (yea yea I know, but it's true I'm a one hand typer). Dress for your age, don't worry about what your younger sisters have to say. Get away to Jamaica with the hubby Done! 3/18-23 Try white water rafting. Go camping. Take family photos in the Spring.

Most importantly, Have Fun & Be Happy!



"What consumes your mind, controls your life"

Tuesday, April 11, 2017

March 2017

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Oh March. You were so good to me. Thank you!!! 

Lots of things happened this month. 

My dear friend flew up from Florida with her brand new baby :) we were able to catch up on life and the we got to me her husband. 

Most of the bathroom face lift was completed this month. It's still not 100% finish but we're getting there. 

We celebrated my brothers 28th birthday. 

We took a trip to the ice skating rink. It was the boys first time and boy oh boy was it fun and hilarious hahaha. Definitely something we'll be doing again. 

I turned 30!!! Oh yes, more on this soon. 

After dinner and cake with the littles, hubby and I flew down to the Caribbean to give the 30s a proper welcome. 😉

My Dad's little sister came to stay with us for a weekend from the Dominican Republic. Lots of shopping and family time well spent. 

Hubby and I attended our church's marriage seminar for the 4th year in a row now. Very informative, so glad we were able to attend. 

This month we didn't get to attend bible study like we had been doing which made me feel so guilty. Hoping we get back on the wagon for April. 

March was so amazing! I am loving life so much right :)

Wednesday, March 15, 2017

Reflection on my 20s *Part 2

I’m not even going to lie. I like the idea of turning 30 tomorrow and starting the new volume of this book I call my life on earth. Its bittersweet t say goodbye to an era where in most of it all I did was try to find who I was and my purpose on earth. And although I have yet to figure it all out I have learned so much about myself.

My twenties were full of some great moments and some not so great, but let’s call those life lessons. By reflecting back to those moments I can truly say I learned a lot. I definitely had several lessons I had to repeat to grasp the concept but for the most part I think I got it now. Aside from those life lessons everything else was perfect.

*I married my best friend. I may not have known so back then but the older we get the more we realize we really are each other’s best friend. We have grown and mature so much together and most importantly we have leaned to love each other unconditionally. Marriage is hard, very hard. It requires patience, love, forgiveness, and maturity. Yet for every bad day there were at least ten good ones, which I wouldn’t trade for the world.

*I became mother to two amazing sons. Half of the time I still don’t get this motherhood gig right but seeing those sweet angels of mine grow and evolve into their unique loving and caring personalities makes me forget about every gray hair I have gained since their birth. They seriously are my pride and Joy.

*I have grown so much closer to my mother. She is right up there with my husband holding a best friend title. She’s my backbone, she seriously is. Life would be so much harder without her and I am thankful for every day I get to have her on earth with me.

*My siblings on the other hands are a different story. I feel that over these last several years we have grown apart more than I have ever dreamed of. However, things are turning around and I hope that as they grow older and mature more themselves they’ll too start to realize what’s really important in life and who truly means them well. Whatever the future holds for us they will be forever my little brother and sisters.

*I’ve had the opportunity to travel so much these last ten years. From Dominican Republic to Puerto Rico several times, Costa Rica, Mexico, and several other states in the country. I look forward to the many other travel adventures that are waiting to happen.

*I decided on a promising career. It has been a long and everything but easy of a journey but I’m getting there and that’s all the matters. I like to say that I live a life of no regrets because those experiences have helped in shaping who I am. However, if there’s anything I would do different is in this section of life.

*Friendships. Well let’s just say that the older I got the less friends I ended up having. These days I seem to have a lot of acquaintances and about a handful of friends. And I’m okay with that.

*I have spent this entire decade working in the medical field. Learning, seeing, understanding, helping, you name it. I’ve come across so many people and I have learned so much about so many things. These years were years that developed my work ethic and really taught me about the meaning of life.

*Heath & Fitness were not a major part of this decade but will for sure be a part of the next. I like to call the last ten years stepping-stones ;)

*Last but not least, my faith and religion. The biggest most gratifying decision I made this decade was to follow Jesus, to trust him and believe on his promises. Don’t misunderstand me I’m not perfect. I fail a lot. Yet being able to see the progress I have made over the years motivates to continue on this path. I am so happy about my growth in this area of my life. I am no where near perfect nor do I expect it to be by the end of my time on this earth but one thing I know for sure is that with each passing day I become more aware of the importance of prayer and faith in God.


I have to admit that I have yet figured out all there is to know about life but I can finally say that I have figured out part of who I am and what I want out of life. So no, I will not be saying goodbyes to my 20s, I rather say Thank You.

Thank You for the lessons learned.

Tuesday, March 14, 2017

Reflection on my 20s *Part 1

Life in general

Life is a beautiful gift and you have the ability to make it as worth it and as meaningful as you wish. There is truth in saying that with age your priorities as well as you maturity level changes. Even just last year when I got the idea of writing this post I wondered, “well… what would I say? I still don’t feel stable enough to write anything "good" about my 20s. Little did I know that I was living a negative lifestyle even though I would always make it seem otherwise. It also didn’t ponder that it would take pretty much the full year to come to my senses and change my ways. It was one of those things where I wasn’t practicing what I was preaching.

Today however I have concluded that my 20s were amazing! I lived a healthy decade both physically and mentally, meet amazing people (whether or not some were just phase friends), married a wonderful man, had two amazing smart, funny, and handsome sons, moved into a spacious house, and worked wonderful jobs that taught me a lot and prepared me for this next chapter of life. The list is endless!

Let’s review some facts.

Every single person on this earth grows up with different upbringings, experiences, circumstances, luxuries, etc.

In my case, I was born in a third world country and was raised by a single mother.

I didn’t really have a father figure for long. The first 6 years of my life my father was in prison for 5 of those years. Two years later my mother, siblings, and I move to the United States without him. And two years after being here my father died.

I grew up in the projects with a mom whose main concern was to make enough money to feed us and clothe us. Which means she wasn’t really an involved parent with our education. Not to mention she never truly learned the language.

Due to her absence I was promoted to mother figure for my younger siblings. I was cooking meals by age 11 and was responsible for dropping off my siblings at daycare and school before getting myself to junior high.

I left my mother’s house at age 15 with a “boyfriend”. Got a job and started supporting myself.  Of course that didn’t last long. By age 17 I was back home. Shortly after, I found myself in an abusive relationship that almost destroyed me.

A year after that I met my now husband and got pregnant at 18. It wasn’t easy. I always knew I wanted to go to college and have a career yet I had no ambition or true motivation on getting started nor did I know exactly what I wanted out of life. I was simply going through the days as they came. Until my husband talked some sense into me, of course, and motivated me to reach for the stars. 

He on the other hand had a completely different life story than mine.

All through my 20s I wondered what it would have been like if I would have had a different childhood. I was envious of all the people I came across by that had a dad, who knew what they wanted from an early age, who were smart, ambitious, and go getters with an extrovert personality. Pretty much for the majority of my 20s I compared myself to others while neglecting all the blessings and good I had right in front of me.

Today, although it took long enough, I have realized that the grass in not always greener on the other side. From that other side my grass looks greener to someone else.

We are all different. We all grow up with different experiences. We all want to be happy. What we don’t realize is that we block so much happiness from entering our lives by focusing on other people’s lives and their blessings instead of enjoying ours.


If we want our grass to look greener than our neighbors' then we must water our own lawn instead of wasting time wondering how and why theirs look better.

I know still have so much growing to do and and so many things I want to achieve but right now I know that I am exactly where I need to be. My perspective on life has change so much. My priorities have shifted. I am so much more positive. Life feels good. It feels right. I can finally say that I have done some effective soul searching and that I am happy with my life. 

Today I am thankful and feel blessed to be where I am and who I am.

to be continue...

Tuesday, February 28, 2017

February 2017

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Oh February. You will always be a dear month to me for many reasons but mainly because just like December with it festivities and the way it makes me feel, the cool air that surrounds this month fills me with me love and everything that is happy and good. 

Although unlike January, February felt like it lasted an eternity. Even today as I write this all I can think about is, "is it really only February 28th?" Hahaha. I feels like it lasted forever. Like I didn't accomplish much of anything and pretty much everything all at the same time. Maybe it was just a bittersweet month as I accepted that my 20s will soon end and a new decade of life will begin. I feel like I learned a lot about myself believe it or not. I feel mature. I feel grown. I think back to when we first came to the USA almost twenty one years ago and how my mom was my soon to be age. A single mother to three kids under the age of 10 in a country where she didn't speak the language and had the support of everyone and no one. Gosh it sounds crazy realizing that back then the only thing my mom was able to focus on was working to support and provide for her children meanwhile two decades later she is living the life with her husband. I don't know about you but I think she should have been "living the life" back then. No? 

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Anyways that's besides the point. I guess the point I'm trying to make now is that back then I thought my mom was "old" but reaching her age from then in sixteen short days make me realize that she wasn't old at all in 1997. Being head of household, working a 8-5 job, cooking daily, having multiple children, etc is pretty much the norm at 30 whether you're married or a single parent. Unless you are otherwise single and children free, then life is probably totally different right?

This month I did lots and lots of cooking. From new recipes to traditional Dominican recipes I must say that I have surprised myself in my cooking skills and the ability to feed my boys. 

My brother and I have been of great help and support for each other these last months.  It feels nice to share the bond that we share as siblings. Early in the month we even got our kiddos together to go watch Disney On Ice. It was a great time and a beautiful experience to watch them all enjoy this so much :)

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As a family we continued to attend bible study at our church and my brother joined us several times as well with his daughters, that was nice!

I did lots of cleaning, de cluttering, and reorganizing around the house. So much so that we even started giving our bathroom a facelift. Eekkk! So exciting. I hope to share that adventure along with our Kitchen Reno this month. 

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I tried focusing a lot on exercise and healthy eating this month and well, simply put I failed. I did eat healthier most of the month but most days dinner was done kind of late. And I only attended the gym about a handful of times. But I'm not giving up. A little bit of improvement each month is better then no improvement at all. 

We had beautiful weather several times this month and one "real" snow day. 

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Hubby and I had a total of 3 date nights. Like actual outings with just adults. Ahhhh that was nice! We love our boys but it is nice to have adult time once in a while. One of those times we meet up with two my cousins and their husband and fiancé. Definitely time well spent :)

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And of course my boys got bigger both physically and mentally, is like who are these kids??? Check out this comparison of AJ and Steven with me both at 4 years old :) #priceless 



And this just about wraps it up. So far 2017 has treated us good. Looking forward to the next 10 months and all the adventures that they'll bring. 

Tuesday, January 31, 2017

January 2017



This month felt like it came and left way too fast while at the same time it felt like it lasted an eternity. My little family and I welcomed the New Year by celebrating with my best friend and her family. She had lots of food and a pretty nice set up at her house where she invited her. Lowest family and friend to ring in the New Year together. We hadn't spent the NYE out of our home in years. We would always stay in and simply watch the ball drop from the comfort of our couch. Most of those times the ball would watch us because we would be asleep even before midnight. However this year I was determine to dig deep into the festive gal who was burrows deep Year after year and what do you know, she came out and enjoyed herself even more than she had expected. Specially because she had everything she needed right next to her, her family :)

The next day we celebrated Penelope's christening.



And a couple days after that we celebrated Adrian's 4th birthday. Can you believe he's already 4 years old and will be starting kindergarten next year? Holy mother has time flown by. I feel like it was just last month I was writing pregnancy update posts. I seriously have no idea where the last few Year have gone to. Getting back to his birthday celebration, on the second of January we gathered immidiate cousins and headed over to Chuckie Cheese where they all played, ran, are pizaa and cake, and had a grand ol' time together. I love having this picture as memory because I know it will mean a lot when they are all grown up with kids of their own. The only one missing is Penelope but it's ok. We'll get another picture with her in it soon enough.



On his actual birthday we stayed home and had my best friend and her kids come over to sing happy birthday to him. He was having the time of his life celebrating over and over again his birthday. I think we may have confused him a bit jajaja. Sorry buddy.

The following weekend I started the 21 day fast with my church. It was hard let me tell you. I didn't prepared for it as well as I should of and needless to say I failed at it half way through it. I had only done this fast once before and fasting is, or rather was, something I wasn't too familiar with until just a couple weeks ago. Even after starting the Daniel fast i was super confused and it was t until mid way through that I truly understood the principles and practices of fasting. Next year I'll be better prepared for sure. Until then I want to try faster for skitter periods because I honestly felt a change within me in the past month.

On another note, I want to add that the family and I have been consistent in attending bible study every week since the end of December. It makes me so happy to see the kids enjoying bible study just as much as I do. Even the hubby plans his day around bible study on Wednesdays. God is good friends. God is good and his timing perfect :)



We also celebrated Lito's 12th birthday this month. I can't believe this is his second birthday with us already. You see what I mean. Time does fly. And he truly is a good kid. Is unfortunate that he is in this situation but I have faith that he'll pull through it just fine.



I met with my coworkers fur dinner one night and it was much fun. I'm beginning to feel very attached to these girls. It'll be sad when we all go our separate ways in the nearing future.

There's not much to say about Steven Jr except that my child his growing up fast. He is starting to get into girls, caring about his looks, and getting into fashion and other sports. He even pull a stunt last weekend where he and some friends from school planned on going skating over the weekend and he actually convinced us on taking him. He even used his allowance money to pay for himself and Lito. Umm... I wonder if the teen years are closer than I think.



Lastly, hubby and I have been doing pretty well in the marriage department. I'm proud to say that we are beating our 12 years dating anniversary and that life has been pretty sweet lately. We ended the year attending my work "Christmas Party in January" event and that was pretty fun. A lot more fun than last year actually ;)

Sunday, January 22, 2017

Winter 2017: Day In The Life

Steven 30 years old (the 30s are here!) 
Pamela 29 years old (the 30s are around the corner)
Steven Jr 10.5 years old
Lito 11 (turning 12 tomorrow)
Adrian 4 years and 19 days old
King 6 years old

Sunday January 22, 2017 


DITL Winter 2017

0530 | Hubby wakes up. He's been having a bad night with an upset stomach waking every couple of hours rushing to the bathroom. This has got to be the 4th time he got up since we went to bed last night. I feel like I've slept a lot and that it should be time for work already but as I look at the window it doesn't feel like it's morning yet. I wait for hubby to get back in bed and ask him for the time.  I'm to lazy to get up and grab my phone off the charger. He says "you have 30 minutes left of sleep" and passes me my phone. Is exactly 530am. I debate whether or not to get up now but decide to wait for the alarm to go off. 

0600 | first alarm goes off and as I go to press snooze I see the "Day In The Life" reminder. I get excited but not excited enough to get up. What's 15 more minutes I say. Is not like I have to get the kids ready or drop anyone off anywhere. 

0615 | second alarm. Snooze again. 

0627 | CRAP! I really gotta get up now. I have 15 minutes to get ready and leave the house or else I'll be super late for work. I manage to leave the house by 6:47 but I know I'll be a few minutes late. There is so much fog. I don't like it. 

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0705 | I'm here. Just in time. Thank God for grace time. I make it with one minute to spare. I leave my coat in the staff lounge and walk out to the main station praying we didn't get any one from our staff taken away to work on another floor. I have the same group as yesterday and they are pretty heavy. Meaning, they are complex patients and they require a lot of assistance. Even having just two extra patients will for sure turn this day into a day from hell. Luckily we are fully staffed. Yaayyy! 

I get report and work on prioritizing my care. I warm up water for my tea and chat with one of my nurse for the day. This morning feels like a deja vu for some reason. 

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0740 | I start my work. First thing for the day is get patient's vitals and make sure breakfast is ordered. I have eight patients and a total of four rooms. Our unit has some private and some double rooms and all my rooms today are doubles. Which I don't mind much because simply put it's just so much easier. 

0850 | what a freaking joke. It seriously took me over an hour to do vitals on eight patients. What a hot mess. Of course everyone needed to be toileted and I might as well sit them up in the chair for breakfast since they're up anyways. And remember I said my section was heavy? Well all my patients require 2 people to help them out of bed so I either needed the nurse to help or I would grab the first sucker that made eye contact with me hahaha. That's a joke. Kinda. 

By 10:00 6 out of my 8 patients were up in their chair and bathed. I am on a role today! 

Back to the second round of toileting and making sure everyone is comfortable. Luckily I didn't have blood work or EKGs to do this morning like yesterday. Yesterday it was 2pm and I was still getting patients bathe. Yesterday was a bad and long day.  However most of my patients had tests and procedures scheduled for today so I've been helping transport transfer them in and out of bed/chair. 

1050 | time for a 15 minutes break. I am starving and the only thing in my system is a tea I drank at 7am. I don't know how I made it this long without getting super cranky. 

DITL Winter 2017

I eat oatmeal with brown sugar and a banana. I really wanted a veggie omelette but this will do. I take a window selfie because I realize that I don't have many pictures and is not like I can volunteer patients to appear on this blog post. 

1120 | mid day vitals time. I manage to finish this round by 12:05. Not too bad. I do some more toiletting and rounding then I start my charting. I plan on getting out of here on time today because we have plans for the evening. 

DITL Winter 2017

1400 | I have yet to take my lunch break. I wanted a co-worker to touch up my hair so I use my lunch break for that and with the ten minutes I have left I eat a cup of pasta salad made by said co-worker. 

Today flew by. I got so much done. I feel very accomplished. I honestly thought I would have so much time to spare but nope, nothing. Nada. Zip. 

DITL Winter 2017

1540 | I clock out of work but chat with two co-workers for about ten minutes before heading to my car.  Home by 4:20 and I after saying hello to the kiddos I run up to shower and get ready. Lito's birthday is tomorrow and we're going out to Sky Zone today to celebrate. Since hubby works tomorrow and it's a school night we have to be conscious of whatever we might do so we decided to take him out today for some fun and dinner then we'll cut a cake and sing happy birthday tomorrow. 

Hubby and I sit in the room and talk a while before I get in the shower and start getting ready. We've been spending a lot of quality time lately just talking about random stuff and plans for the year ahead. 

1730 | we head out to Sky Zone. We purchase an hour of jumping for the kids. I'm not really in the mood to jump. I'm a scary cat and all I do is jump up and down, no front or back flips for me. So it's a waste to purchase a full hour and hubby's knees have been bothering him lately, he's actually having surgery this coming Wednesday, and he doesn't want to hurt the knee anymore. 

DITL Winter 2017

1800-1900 the boys jump and run and play and sweat and jump again. They are having a great time which makes me really happy. Is the little things in life :) 

AJ surprised us a lot today. He learned how to jump and do a front flip in the air. Of course the mother in me had my heart out of my chest worrying  and thinking of every possible scenario my child could get hurt yet at the same time I can't believe our baby is this big. He's such a go getter, reminds me so much of his brother. He too surprised me with his flipping skills. Our big boy is on the heavier side so is not easy for him to do flips or do things as easy as others can.  But that doesn't stop him from at least trying and that too makes me happy. I want my kids to know that there's nothing they cannot accomplish if they are willing to go for it. 

DITL Winter 2017


DITL Winter 2017

1915 | we arrive at Chilis for dinner. Hubby orders 3 meats fajitas, I get a salad the kids get burgers and fries, mac and cheese, and corn dogs. The food is brought out fairly quickly and we enjoy a good meal wit each other. Some joking around later and it's time to head home. Even though tomorrow is an in-service day so there's no school I want them in bed early (bedtime is usually 8pm on week nights) because they had a busy and productive day today and I'm sure they will have just as much energy tomorrow. 

2045 | we're home. Hubby claims his spot on the couch and puts on a movie. The older boys take out the garbage, and I take AJ a shower and get him ready for bed. He tries to get away with not sleeping in his room tonight but we manage to come to an agreement. If he sleeps in his room all night he will get a chocolate tomorrow. My boy will do anything for a chocolate bar. He'll even go the extra mile if it's a white chocolate Hershey bar. 

Eventually the other two jump in the shower too. They must be really tired because no one came down to say goodnight and after showers were over the upstairs got pretty quiet faster than normal.

DITL Winter 2017

2130 | I decide to start typing up the events of the day using my phone but then I decide to continue from my laptop and after loggin in and typing in www.blogger.com the page cannot be opened. I'm confused. There's a ton of other stuff opening up too (iTunes, iPhoto, Word, etc). I find it very strange. I keep messing around with Safari and closing programs but something is not right. Then in iPhoto it tells me that i need to connect a camera or phone to start using it and I'm like WTF!? I panic. I search all over and everything is gone. My pictures. My videos. My files. Everything is gone. 

Hubby is sitting next to me and I tell him all of AJs baby's pictures are gone. Everything from the last 5 years is gone. I start to cry. Like tears just running down my face and snot down my nose. I message my brother to as him what he did to my laptop because he was the last one to use it and he says "nothing". I'm still on panic mode. I don't know what to do. Tears still running down my cheeks. I'm very limited on my computer skills I barely know how to search google and save files, pictures, etc. I couldn't tell you how to change settings and changing the background picture takes my quite the while. So yes I'm very technology challenged. 

Finally I go to the little apple on the left corner and mistakenly click on the log out which pops a window saying that all my files will be deleted. I'm still lost. How can everything be deleted when there's nothing here. Well, what else do I have to lose right. I click OK only to realize that maybe everything is gone because I'm not logged in to my username. I pray that this is what's going on. A minute of torture that felt an eternity pass by and indeed. I was logged in as a guest. 

Thank You Jesus!!! 

I smile then turn to my left to see if hubby is paying attention. He's not. Of course. Then I say "never mind. I was in the wrong account". He looks at me like I'm losing my mind. I explain. He shakes his head and tells me I better invest in a backup hard drive. He says "what did you do with the one I gave you? You didn't even use it did you. I bet you don't even know where it's at." I laugh and think to myself. I know where it is. I just never got around to using it. 

Well let me just say that I have learned a valuable lesson. My goal for the coming week is to back up everything!!! 

2157 | I get a message from my brother after I explain everything saying "Lmao. Smh." I don't even respond back. I'm embarrassed to say that I thought he wiped clean my laptop. 

2200 | I carry on with finishing this post. I want to send it to Julia on time in order to participate in this DITL. Kept going back and forth between recording a day in the life or not. I always have this issue when it's time to do them and most of the time I end up not doing it.

Today was definitely a record day since I was able to finish up the post before midnight. And may I add that I am exhausted!!! I wish I would have gotten better and more pictures though.

DITL Winter 2017


p.s.: update

0017 | email sent. I start to pick up a bit.  I can hardly keep my eyes open. I decide is bedtime the mess can wait till tomorrow.

0055 | I wake up hubby who is knocked out on the couch so we can head up to bed. I'm kind of glad there's no  school tomorrow, I will be definitely sleeping in ;)